
Happy V-Day - a day that I use to prove that my initials do not mean only one thing!
"Oh look - a Gaysian!" "A what?" "A Gay Asian!!"
“You should have a destination wedding!” “Where, like Latvija? It’s cold there and the land that we have is a farm!”
Best quote of the night - "Friends don't let friends dry-hump." Just watch the movie, seriously…..Scarlett Johannson (and her boobs) says dry hump....
And I had to be "that customer" - the one who orders something that is not on the menu - however, I have insider info - I know very well that the D & B managers don't mind making the "Oona's Grilled Chicken Salad" - seriously, they have everything on hand and many of them want to put it back on the menu.
It’s impossible for me to walk into a mall (especially Providence Place since I know who built it and originally managed it) and not look for the expansion joints, check out the sprinklers, etc. I have to go back too - they have a Lush!!
Brennie-Pooh - "He was a big fluffy German Shepard with fluffy looking paws. I sooooo wanted to shmuggle (shmush the ears and head and snuggle) him. "
Me - "You have restraint - I have a tendency to go "Oooo puppy!" even at the service dogs. Granted, I also wished every dog (not their owners) a Happy New Year when I was two - I was taking a walk with my grandma (in the Bronx) on New Year's Day."
Yup, even hugged a Great Dane on one of my birthdays - that was actually a recent event, not as a kid.....
Still in reading mode....my brain is just absorbing things....
I've been experimenting with cooking Latvian foods - it started a few years ago. I have my grandmother's Latvian cookbook (in Latvian of course) but if you are curious and want to make one of the staples - Piragi - here's the recipe in English!
http://recipes.epicurean.com/recipe/170/piragi-(latvian-bacon-rolls).html
My brain is on overload - been reading way too many news stories and blogs today....
Uconn Rock - they painted their whole crest! d00d - KKPsi - get on it!!
The mall as a Day Trip....even if they did get spanked for being ugly.....
I can't sleep......
So, there I am, making treats for my Vermont trip - looking forward to fun. I get a call from one of my friends - he just says "She's gone" and starts crying. There's only one "she" in his life - always has been - he lost the love of his life. She died because of a risky pregnancy - finally a girl after 4 boys.
Watch the movie ‘Fear’ – that was their relationship but they ended up coming out friends in the end - complete with him watching her kids at times. I am very worried that he is going to freak out – he adjusted to her being married to someone else - at least she was alive - they could still see each other.
My heart is just torn apart for him. I never want to hear that kind of pain from anyone that I care about – it’s just horrible to know that you can’t help or fix it, you can just listen to their heart as it breaks.....

OK, before I re-draft again or go on and on ad nauseum....
I had a moment over the weekend - I just stopped and said “Wow, I’m really back”. It was a feeling that I have had a lot lately, but this one just stopped me in my tracks. I don’t need to peek back at my older blog posts or the volumes of paper journals to know - things are definitely much better. Certain situations are not resolved (nor will they ever be) but they are no longer in the front and center of my being as they used to be. The whirlwind has let me go/I have gotten out of it.
And I know that there is no answer to the evil question - What do you do when the one person that can fix things is the one who broke them in the first place? Sometimes all you want is the embrace that makes you believe that all is right with the world (even though it is beyond f*#ked up).
The feeling has slowly materialized from a whole bunch of sources and some have been more help than they realize. Some of it came from within – adjusting the life plan yet again - it took a while to get there (especially given what happened).
You are still the ying to my yang and one of the few on the planet who totally gets me, but your importance level has drastically diminished. Even you know that - it has been brutally obvious in the past months. You are one of my best friends and we will be in each other’s lives, but not like we used to be. Bye my dear, I'm staying in New England.....
Haven’t shown the spoils of Therapy Tuesday in a while, so…

Resume - updated and submitted - also sent out to a handful of people that I know will give me some good feedback. (even if it's to tell me that marketing people can spin themselves to be rockstars at the most mundane job...ha, ha....)
I can’t not apply – it’s a weird feeling - even if nothing comes of it, I would kick myself (alot) if I didn’t try.....

What is it about you that makes me say "Hi baby!" whenever I see you? You put a smile on my face, your horsepower is just perfect for me and I can now be mistaken for a vampire because of you.
I still love you but the end is coming near. I wish that you and I could stay together, but too many things are going wrong and it is just a smarter move to trade you in......I don't know if your replacement will make me feel this way......maybe that's why I haven't really been looking too hard when I know that I should be....
I was asked to review someone’s resume since they are on the prowl for a new job (I will get it back to you soon - promise!!)….this got the gears moving……
Then I get an email from a place that I hold dear to my heart for a position that I know I can handle, pays great and I would enjoy doing even though the hours are not the standard 9-5…..
I will have to update my resume and go for it.
I think that the cosmos may actually be listening to me.....pony, pony, pony!

I'm one of a bunch of people out there that will pause in the middle of an ice storm, say "Oooo pretty!" and haul out one of my cameras to take a picture. 

